After six months back in Vancouver we are off on the next leg of the never-ending journey. This leg will take us to Hawaii for five days, Samoa for six, and Fiji for two, before arriving in Sydney mid December. We are island hopping across the Pacific to protect Don’s back from those brutal fifteen-hour flights, and also to thwart serious jetlag. From Sydney we will travel to Canberra, my Australian hometown, to housesit for my oldest friend from high school and to have Christmas and New Year with family. Following that we will begin a five-week exploration of New Zealand. Returning to Australia, after two weeks at the beach with family, we will explore from the Great Ocean Road in the south to Darwin and Kakadu National Park in the north. And then in Early May we will fly back to Vancouver stopping in Fiji and Hawaii along the way.
This past six months in Vancouver has been one of the most social times of our lives reconnecting with old friends. Just as rewarding was meeting for the first time with people we’d only known online through the blog, and with the friends of friends who’d been kind enough to let us stay in their homes while they were away. We kept commenting to each other in mild astonishment about how social we’d become. We even gave two dinner parties. We have good friends, who have good friends. Wonderful thoughtful funny open people. Every gathering was a joy and added richness to our lives.
At the same time this past six months has been a surprising roller coaster, and a test of patience, presence and acceptance. So much happened that was unexpected and has left us reeling a little. First my badly sprained ankle, then dealing with South American parasites and viruses, then Don’s burst lumbar disc, plus the unwelcome discovery that we both have mildly elevated cholesterol levels – something new for both of us which we mainly attribute to eating ‘stupid’ for two months in Cyprus, and lack of exercise due to illness and injury. I also have had a lot of right shoulder and hip pain, which had me looking at the underlying causes. It has felt like one darn thing after another.
We both had to look at fears and limiting beliefs about ageing, and I was dealing with weight issues fueled by the deeper need to be ‘good enough’. I discovered the right shoulder pain was the pain of carrying the blog as a ‘should’ and a burden. I discovered the right hip pain was arising from inner conflict about my life path. I thought I wanted to be in meditation retreats, and devotedly following a spiritual teacher until I became ‘enlightened’ (whatever that means). I finally had to face the fact that that was not the life I was living, not the choices I had been making. For years. The inner conflict was tearing me in two at the hips – exactly the place that symbolizes moving forward with your life. The truth is I want the life I have, not that other life which is nothing but an old illusion I had about how I would get to where I wanted to be. I now know I already am where I want to be.
It has been a time of much truth facing and growth and letting go of old ingrained ideas and beliefs that no longer serve us.
It is now November 29, the day we fly to Hawaii. And the whole feel of life being a bit like a comedy of errors continues. Rushing this morning like an out of control tornado I smashed my face into a door jamb right between the eyes and have a gash that probably needs stitches, but won’t get them. I was gushing blood but stopped it with pressure. I’ll be heading off to Hawaii with a bandaid on my forehead. Talk about having to let go of any ego pretensions about appearance. Meanwhile Don returned the rental car and forgot to give them the keys, so had to go back there only to discover the office was closed for an hour for lunch so had to hang out there for nearly half an hour waiting for it to open again.
I called our friends who are taking us to the airport to give them an update on Don’s whereabouts and noticed the power cord for his computer was still on the floor under the table in the guest suite where we’re staying. I bend down to get it and my face starts gushing blood again. This is nearly four hours after I injured it. More pressure to stem the bleeding but I’m a bit freaked out. Our friends come down from their apartment to help me get all our bags into their car. Michael thank goodness decides to do a check of all the drawers and cupboards and finds a whole bunch of kitchen utensils we’ve left in a drawer – and this after I’ve been rushing like a mad woman to get all extraneous items to our storage locker. Too late now. Oh and we both have colds. Never before have we left town in such a state of chaos.
We are now at the airport. I’ve had my forehead seen by the paramedics here and all is well. Smacked myself pretty much right in the third eye. Hmmm . . . . I wonder what that’s about. Don asked me what it was about and I said I think it was a big SLOW DOWN message. Presence. Trust. Surrender. Presence. Same things as always. I really was in some kind of frantic panic with no need to be at all.
Thank you Michael and Ricki for being such good friends, and for getting us to the airport.
That’s all for now. We are off to the tropics. When we get off the plane in about seven hours it will be about 25 degrees. I relax at just the thought of it.
Photo of the day: Cyprus rose
All words and images by Alison Louise Armstrong unless otherwise noted
© Alison Louise Armstrong and Adventures in Wonderland – a pilgrimage of the heart, 2010-2015.
Wow what a journey! Lol what island in Hawaii are u going to? May the rest of your journey be smooth!
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Thanks so much. It’s getting smother by the day. It’s our first full day here (Oahu) and already we are feeling better – soaking up the heat and the beautiful beaches and blue skies. Heaven.
Alison
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I’m excited for you! It’s always so thrilling to be setting off on a new journey. Even though it seems to have started with a few bumps (literally!), your first deep breaths in that warm air and relaxing atmosphere will melt all the craziness away! I love both Australia and New Zealand, and I’m sure all the Pacific islands are heavenly. I look forward to following along!
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Thanks. We’re finally pretty excited ourselves. It’s wonderful to finally be in Hawaii especially since the journey was so crazy on the last day in Vancouver. You’re right – out first deep breaths of the warm air here and all the craziness has melted away. We are mellowing right out.
Alison
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“I discovered the right hip pain was arising from inner conflict about my life path. . . The inner conflict was tearing me in two at the hips – exactly the place that symbolizes moving forward with your life.”
If you had a moment Alison, I would be very interested to know of where these ideas come from.
Hariod. ❤ (I know you don't do smileys here, but you get my drift!)
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The ‘dissection’ of the symbolism of body parts and illnesses/injuries comes mainly from Louise Hay’s “You can heal your life” which I read many many years ago. Since then through various teachers (eg Eckhart Tolle) and personal experience I’ve come to understand the body as being a kind of emotional bellwether. It tells you what you’re not letting yourself feel at the emotional level. It doesn’t mean that all illness/injury is rooted in an inability or unwillingness to live the emotional truth, but it quite frequently is. Unfelt feelings never die and they show up in the body because that’s the only way to get them out. I have found it helps to have some understanding of the symbolism of each part of the body in order to gain a deeper understanding of where I’m holding onto painful and/or limiting and/or conflicting beliefs and the attendant emotions that need to be expressed at the emotional level so they no longer show up at the physical level.
http://keeperofbalance.blogspot.com/2013/01/louise-hay-list-of-common-illnesses-and.html
http://www.louisehay.com
Alison ❤ I do get your drift 🙂
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Thank you so much for taking time to respond Alison; I greatly appreciate it. I have to confess I am somewhat at a loss to understand what is meant by the term “unfelt feelings” and assume this refers more to a psychological suppression – a rejection in full consciousness of what is barely conscious?
As with any object of consciousness (however weakly perceived) there’s an accompanying tone felt in the mind, one which may extend to being felt in the body too of course, so causing what we call an ’emotion’ – a thought with an attendant feeling. I can therefore appreciate that any barely suppressed thought component of any such emotion may result in apparently inexplicable bodily sensations.
This take, whilst not contrary to the intended essence of what you state above, is nonetheless somewhat at odds with the statement “you’re not letting yourself feel at the emotional level”. Rather, the process as a whole is a perpetuation and magnification of the felt emotion and which lasts for just so long as the thought element (the reason) of the emotion is suppressed. Perhaps this is primarily a semantic difference; and the same bellwether effect obtains of course.
Very many thanks Alison.
Hariod. ❤
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It is a bit of a semantic difference. Perhaps I should not have said “you’re not letting yourself feel at the emotional level”, which implies a conscious decision which in most cases (actually probably all cases) it is not conscious. I do mean a psychological suppression, a rejection of what is barely conscious, though I certainly don’t think the suppression is done consciously or deliberately. I wish I could be more conscious of the mind’s unconscious, or barely conscious, machinations and so be able to make the necessary inner changes to constrictive narratives and beliefs before the constriction shows up as physical pain. Certainly in my own case it seems to just happen, and then when I’m looking into the physical pain as a mirror of psychological pain I discover a whole narrative that I didn’t even know had been running at unconscious levels (such as the narrative about how I ‘should’ be living that other live as a nun and devotee). Hope this makes it more clear.
Alison ❤
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Thank you both for your blog. I always enjoy reading it…but please Allison…no shoulds. You can leave some places out! I appreciate your honesty in sharing your human inner travels as well. I have chronic fatigue or would have offered some help when you were in Vancouver. I know you Have lots of travelling delights ahead. All best wishes, Kate Brunton
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Thanks so much Kate. I’m glad you’re enjoying the blog. So sorry to hear about the chronic fatigue. I hope things improve for you. Oh I know, no shoulds! I seem to do that to myself and it takes weeks of a painful shoulder (should -er lol) to figure out what has been going on at unconscious levels. Trying really really hard to just follow intuition with the blog. There is so much joy in it for me. If I just stay with that I’m fine.
The travelling delights have already begun. We are loving being back in the tropics.
Best wishes to you too.And much healing!
Alison
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Bon Voyage
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Thanks Carlton. We’re on our way. Hawaii is glorious.
Alison
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enjoying the adventure
through your vibrant words and images 🙂
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Thank you so much. We are on the road again and it feels wonderful.
Alison ❤
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What a trip! Enjoy the next part of your adventure. 🙂
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Thanks Paulette. It’s day one and after a quite long walk along the beautiful beach we are resting and recovering from the craziness of our last day in Vancouver.
All is well.
Alison ❤
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WOO HOO! Sunny paradise. Maybe we can meet up in French Polynesia?????
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Yes indeed Woo Hoo! Yes indeed sunny paradise! 🙂
It is bliss to be here.
We had French Polynesia in mind. Just the idea of going to Tahiti sounded wonderfully romantic, but the flights didn’t work. Are you planning on a trip there?
Alison
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Glad you got your forehead seen to by a professional – good luck on the flight and may it heal up by the time you arrive in Hawaii. Looking forward to some awesome photos from this journey.
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Thanks Ruth. Our flight was fine, and we are so happy to be in Hawaii. I am very glad I got my wound seen to by a professional. Just to be reassured, and because they put much better sticking plasters on it to hold it together. No bleeding at all since that and I’m sure it will just heal itself in a week or so. Only thing is I was so looking forward to doing some snorkelling but better I keep my face out of the water for a while I think.
Photos will be coming 🙂
Alison
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Enjoy guys. I look forward to reading about your experiences in the South Pacific.
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Thanks so much Katie. Lots to see and do in the whole South Pacific area. The best part is mostly warm to hot weather 🙂
Alison
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May your plans unfold beautifully, and the unplanned moments even more!
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Thank you so much. There is so much unplanned at the moment e.g. all of NZ and most of Oz, but serendipity has been good to us so far, so I hope it continues.
Alison
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Bon voyage and safe travels to you both. It was such a pleasure to meet you both in Vancouver and I hope our paths will cross again in New Zealand in January. I’ll email you our rough itinerary and you can let me know if that’s possible. Enjoy the healing warmth of Hawaii, Samoa and Fiji! Love to both.
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Thanks Silk. Karalee reminded us you’ll be in NZ at the same time as us. It would great to reconnect there! We have no itinerary beyond arriving Auckland on or before Jan 6, renting a car and travelling from north to south and flying back to Oz from Christchurch on about Feb 10.
Already the healing warmth on Hawaii is doing the trick.
Bon Voyage to you too!
Alison
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Oh, that sounds like a rough patch, followed by a rough start a trip! I do think it was a slow down and breathe message. Take good care of yourselves–relax and heal. Bon voyage!
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Thanks Naomi. Yes it was a rough patch, no doubt of it. I think we’re still trying to process it all. We’re both so glad to be out of Vancouver and on the road again. And the last day in town pretty much up until we finally got to our boarding gate was crazy. I agree it was a slow down and breathe message.
Luxuriating in the warmth of Hawaii. Breathing now 🙂
Alison
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Must have been an awesome experience to travel in all this places..loved your blog as always..simple yet so informative and friendly too…I would love to go to Hawaii one day..:)
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Oh yes, it definitely has been, and continues to be, an awesome experience. We are very blessed.
I’m so glad you love the blog. Thank you! And I hope you do get to Hawaii one day.
Blessings to you. I love the truth-telling in your blog.
Alison
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Thanks a lot Alison and Don.
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Thanks for taking us along on your travels. We are following you both wherever you set foot, and also on your inner journeys. Especially those. Happy trails and speedy healing. Looking forward to your stories from Oz and NZ and all stops in between.
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Thanks so much Helga. It was so nice to finally meet you in Vancouver. I hope we can connect again next time we’re in town. Sending speedy healing vibes in your direction too.
Alison
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All of us readers are just as happy to be back on the road with you! Looking forward to your discoveries along the way. Safe travels!
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Thanks so much Kelly. We are certainly happy to be back on the road, and hoping to discover, and share, many wonderful things.
Alison
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Slow down. I’ve been getting that message sent as well. Good luck on the next leg.
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Thanks Ross. Yeah I know. Slow down! Painful way to get the message but it has been got. We are in Hawaii. On island time. Om.
Good luck to you too with your next project – may it go well.
Alison
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Yay, excited you are on your way again! Wow, your set of circumstances pre-trip would have left me panicking, thinking, “The universe is telling me NOT to get on the plane!!” So glad you are smarter than I am!!
Happy and fulfilling travels to you both!
Sarah
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Thanks Sarah. We too are excited we are on our way again! I must admit the thought that we might be getting the message not to go did cross my mind, but only very quietly and very briefly. There’s a sense of appropriateness about continuing. Can’t even *imagine* stopping! Not yet anyway. Now we’re relaxing on island time.
Alison
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While I was reading this post I kept thinking of the old adage “The hurrieder I go the behinder I get.” This happens to me whenever I’m rushing to get things done and never seems to accomplish much except make me feel snappy and irritable. Anyway, you’re on island time for now and Oz is beckoning…! Anita
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Yes! That’s exactly it “the hurrieder I go the behinder I get” lol
I did get irritable with Don, but only a little. I got in a panic for no reason. Anyway all is well now. As you say, we are on island time, taking it slow and easy. And my forehead is healing under the super sticky tapes the paramedics put on the gash to hold it together. And one day I’ll be able to go snorkelling again 🙂
Alison
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I am really excited about your next 6 months. Australia and New Zealand always seemed impossibly far away for me – until I started traveling myself. Looking forward to your thoughts and impressions!
And on being social – I was back in my hometown for 2 weeks in early November, and was astonished at how social I was. No dinner parties, but lots of nights out with friends. It’s a nice change from being on the road. 🙂
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I must say Felicity that we too are really excited about the next 6 months! You will get to Oz and NZ – not that far away really, and definitely worth it.
Amazing how social we can get eh?! Don and I really surprised ourselves, and enjoyed every minute of it. It does make a nice change from being on the road – we meet and enjoy many wonderful people, but it’s not the same as old friends. Though I must say that during this past 6 months back in Vancouver we made several new friends (people we housesat for, and people who’ve been following the blog) and I do hope we will get to spend more time with all of them. Every meeting felt like a wonderful connection.
Alison
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How lovely to read “The truth is I want the life I have, not that other life which is nothing but an old illusion I had about how I would get to where I wanted to be. I now know I already am where I want to be.”
Breathing that in, holding that truth for you, and trying to let it ease into me. I am not living the life I want, but I am completing that which I had to do, have to finish – and I am taking steps toward the life I want. But your words have helped me feel gratitude for this space and day, which really is exactly as it should be.
Blessings and love to you and Don.
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Thanks Kelly, I’m so glad this helped. It was quite a revelation for me to see the truth about the life I was actually living vs the life I unconsciously thought I wanted to/should live.
Blessings to you too.
Alison
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It seemed like a very short six months – even though you and Don were in Vancouver the whole time it did feel like you were still on the road somehow. It might have been the timing of all those posts from South America and Cyprus!
This next leg is no less inspiring than any of your previous journeys. Who doesn’t want to cross the Pacific and explore Australia/New Zealand for weeks on end? It reminds me that I must attempt a longer voyage… maybe in the second half of next year. Take care Alison, and have a safe trip!
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Thanks James. As soon as we’re on the road the blog always gets behind – having too much fun exploring! So I was posting way after the fact while we were in Vancouver. I will say it seemed like a long time for us! We’re excited for the next journey though these first few days in Hawaii we’re taking it easy to get over our colds and to gentle along the healing of Don’s back. We *will* hike Diamond Head before we leave! (Well I will anyway.)
Yes do attempt a long trip – there’s a magic to living on the road. We are so happy to be on the move again.
Alison
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Hi Alison, another great post. As a Registered Dietitian, I know that what we eat plays a vital part in our present and future health. I use diet to treat acute and chronic conditions and at times still amazes me how dietary changes can make such an impact in peoples quality of life. Food nourishes our body and our minds. I hope that you and Don enjoy this new adventure and it is so nice that you will be meeting up with old friends. I will be looking forward to your next post. Safe travels.
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Thanks Gilda. We’re usually very good with diet – except maybe my weakness for ice cream 🙂 Don’t know why we kind of lost it in Cyprus. I think we were needing a lot of comfort after the combination of hard travel and pretty awful food in Sth America. Whatever. We’ve been eating healthy for the past six months in Van and are doing well now. Especially now we’re in the lovely warmth of Hawaii 🙂
Alison
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Have a nice trip!
Some of the places you´re going to is on my bucket list to visit, Hawaii and New Zealand. I know one day I will be there.
The fall you had dosen`t hear good out but good on you for taking it steady and chilled!
I see that you left the 29th november so I hope you have a good time in Hawaii at this moment!
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Hi Line! Thanks for your kind words. We’re enjoying Hawaii, and looking forward to our time in Australia and NZ. My wound is much better. I hope it will soon be okay for me to go snorkelling again.
Alison
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Oh, Alison – the two of you – I’m laughing in recognition of the ridiculous collection of injuries saying “look at me!” and “pay attention.” And the irony of the title of your blog in spite of them! So often life speaks to me through events like these and so often I’m not listening or not willing to act on its messages! I’m so right there with you.
Hang in there and heal well. Can’t wait to read more. ❤
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Oh yeah – one darn thing after another saying “pay attention”. Well we paid attention alright – *after* the fact. Never would I have expected to suddenly twist my ankle on a smooth carpeted floor. Sheesh! We always do listen. It’s kinda like being hit over the head with a 2×4, so hard not to. Maybe one day the slow down and be present and trust message will sink in enough that we won’t need any more 2×4’s. It was all the more surprising and unexpected since everything had been going so smoothly for so long, then all of a sudden it seemed that the shit hit the fan so to speak, over and over.
Oh I laughed when I got the irony of the post title! I hadn’t even realised!
Healing well. Thanks. We at least can go for quite long walks now. An improvement.
Alison ❤
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Enjoy those walks in your evolving definition of paradise! ❤
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Oh I hope you’ve had an amazing time in Hawaii! I lived there for six months a few years back and completely fell in love with… well everything there!
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Hawaii was lovely, though the weather could have been more cooperative, and we had a couple of days doing pretty much nothing. Also I couldn’t snorkel because of the gash on my forehead so we’ve saved the best til last. On our return to Vancouver in May we have nearly 3 full days back in Oahu so then will go snorkelling at Hanauma Bay, and again at a lagoon at Ko’Oloni that almost no-one knows about and there’s lots of turtles there, and also will finally get to hike Diamond Head.
We certainly fell in love with the whole tropical feel of it once we got out of Honolulu which is unsurprisingly just another big American city.
Alison
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My goodness, Alison. It’s almost like you guys needed to hit the road to get some rest and get back to basics! Ha!
Well, I do hope you’re third eye got the message. You probably already know this but, I mean, just in case… you know you can just knock gently on the third eye region as well? Just like a little tap with your knuckle or whatever… But I’m impressed by the way you got your point across. No foolin’ around. Straight to the blood, guts and glory. It’s time to FIRE UP in there! I mean business!
When you write about imagining yourself wishing to be following a spiritual teacher to enlightenment, I just think… you’re doing it. You’re writing and adventures reveal an Inner Teacher that is truly lovely to behold. And enlightenment of course is who we all are when we stop trying to be somebody else. 🙂
Much Love
Michael
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Oh you have no idea how happy we are to be back on the road! Getting some rest and back to basics. And thoroughly enjoying ourselves exploring new cultures and having new adventures. We’re in Samoa now and went swimming today in a pool of crystal clear water down a hole about 30 metres deep. It is sea water that flows in through a lava tube.
Next time I’ll try a little tap to the third eye – see if it works when I’m in a crazed panic. Chuckle 🙂 I certainly did get the point across didn’t eye!
Thank you for your words about the Inner Teacher. I admit I listen to it pretty much constantly. Always the truth we seek is there just for the willingness to listen. And yes, I do realise now that the very journey I am on, both inner and outer, *is* the teacher.
Oh and I love your last sentence. What a sweet simple way to express the truth.
Alison ❤
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I can so relate to this post. We left Vancouver 6 weeks ago to move to Spain. All kinds of things went wrong just before we left. I kept thinking the universe was trying to tell me something. But we are here and the warmer climate does help. Slowly catching up on reading blogs etc. All the best. Your next adventure sounds wonderful.
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Wow, I just had a quick look at your blog. Looks like you’re having an amazing time exploring Spain. You’ve moved there, as in actually going to be living there for a while? How fabulous. Where will you be living?
When we first set out way back in 2011 there were lots of things that “went wrong” then too, but it was really just things to be cleared and so much was right about it that we didn’t doubt what we were doing. This time it was more to do with having not been on the road for 6 months so we’d lost out travel-legs or something.
I’m sure, like us, in that final phase before you left, you just kept putting one foot in front of the other until the path opens up.
Have fun in Spain!
Cheers, Alison
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Next hollyday 🙂
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Endless holiday 🙂
Thanks for all the ‘likes’!
Cheers, Alison
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