It’s still a surprise for me to discover that I’m a blogger. I never meant to be. It came about by accident. Six years ago Don and I were about to embark on a six-week journey to the Cook Islands, Australia, and Vietnam. I belong to an online forum for fans of figure skating. My forum friends encouraged me to share our adventure on the forum in the non-skating section. Without this invitation I never would have thought of documenting our journey other than with a few photographs.
I’m still not entirely comfortable with labeling myself as a blogger. This stems largely from a perception, which may or not be accurate, that most people don’t take blogging seriously. I suppose I don’t like being seen as a dilettante, even though I may be one. I’d like the occupation of blogging to be acknowledged as worthwhile even when there’s no financial reward. I feel as if only those who blog understand the meaning of it. I suppose we are all in our own little club, and goddam it nobody takes us seriously! I claim the label blogger in the face of this perception. And apparently I care about this. On the odd occasion that I actually think about my perception that blogging is not respected it’s mildly annoying, but nothing like annoying enough to stop me from blogging. Or sharing the blog with non-bloggers, or calling myself a blogger.
So why do I do it? Well I won’t pretend that I don’t like the feedback and the sense of community. Within the blogging community people get it. Here online we get what blogging is about, and support each other in our endeavours. It’s encouraging that there are people who are interested enough to follow, and to comment, and of course I’m thrilled every time with the compliments about my writing and my photography, and with being included in an online community. I love it all. I love you all. You animate and give meaning to my endeavours. “Likes”, comments, followers, and online community all give life to a blog that would otherwise hang in space like a drifting helium balloon. But all of this is not why I do it. It’s the icing and the cherry on top, but it’s not the cake.
This blog has had me in its grip for five years now. At times it’s been stressful, at times I’ve carried it as a burden, but I can never let go of it. Over the years I’ve thought a lot about why I do it, and I feel clearer about that now than I ever have. There are really only two reasons.
The first is the creative act. I believe that it is our essential nature to create. Even the poorest of us are creative. As I travel the world I’m constantly astounded by the creativity of the human species. In a small isolated village in Myanmar I saw a man creating a dolly from local wood, including the wheels. It was all carved by hand.
In Cambodia the short stems of an invasive water plant are used to make beautiful items ranging from baskets to mats to furniture.
In ordinary everyday life, everywhere you look, there is creativity: from meals to clothing to furniture to shelter. In every aspect of life creativity is what keeps it moving forward. And then of course there is the kind of creativity that has no obvious function, but is purely artistic – writing, painting, sculpture, photography, music, and theatre.
I was lucky enough to be raised in a family that values creativity: even, and perhaps especially, the kind of creativity that is about more than mere survival, the kind of creativity that is about the survival and enrichment of the soul. As a result I’ve been creative all my life – in a wide variety of crafts, in the theatre, as a painter, and more recently as a writer and photographer. I don’t know how to not be creative. Since I no longer have a home, and I can’t carry craft or art materials with me as we travel, writing and photography have become my creative outlets that I then share through the blog. This endeavor has been, and continues to be, a stimulating and challenging learning curve.
The second reason I blog is the need to give it away. Part of the very definition of the creative urge behind this blog is the sharing of it. Most artists create because they can’t help themselves. The creative urge arises, inspiration moves us forward, and then we have something where before there was nothing. Most artists work alone. That which has been created is a secret until the decision to share it is reached. Sometimes it is a delicious secret held close to the heart, a dance of creator and created that is meant for a time to be held in that cauldron of love. Sometimes it is a scratching secret, wanting out, wanting to be in the world but held back by fear. Either way there is something about the act of sharing with the world, however big or small that world might be, that completes the creative process.
Creativity has a luminance that aches to be shared, and I suspect that at some level every artist knows this. Something is created from nothing. The act of then giving it away is perhaps the most important purpose of creation, even if it is gifted to only one other person. It is not an altruistic act; it is not done as a kindness to the world, though that may be a side effect. It’s that the act of giving it away completes the creative process and makes it real. Then the sharing of that which has been created can bring forth new ideas and perceptions. The sharing of it is the foundation of change. Imagine the course of modern painting if Picasso had not shared his cubist works, or the course of theatre if Shakespeare had not shared his plays.
All this writing, and all this photography I do as we travel the world – I can’t not do it. I love photography the most, having been a visual artist all my life, but even the writing, though more challenging, tugs at me to be expressed. And then, through the blog I give it away, because if I don’t it has nowhere to land, no home, no validity. If I don’t give it away I’m not sure it would even really exist. At least it would not exist in any meaningful way.
I’m grateful for the creative urges that arise within me. I don’t for a minute claim them as my own. They arise, they fall away. It’s not like I have any control over inspiration. And I’m grateful for all of you who read this blog and bring to completion that which has been created through me. I love the way the creative tapestry of – everything! – completes itself. I love the way we all weave the luminance together, without even trying.
Finally I must give credit to my online friend, and much loved member of my blogging community, Michael Mark, for the inspiration for this post. On his blog Embracing Forever Michael wrote a post about his decision to pursue writing, to become a writer. His final sentence in that post, referring to what we need to sustain us, is: Only the need to give it away. I gasped with recognition when I read it. On that potent involuntary in breath I finally understood what it’s all about: the need to give it away. In that moment I got it that whatever we create is not finished until we share it.
Photos of the day: Top – Sunflower, Vancouver, Canada.
Bottom – Passion Flower, Vancouver, Canada
All words and images by Alison Louise Armstrong unless otherwise noted
© Alison Louise Armstrong and Adventures in Wonderland – a pilgrimage of the heart, 2010-2016.
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Well written and superbly expressed. Reminds me a little of something I wrote on this topic: https://grandtrines.wordpress.com/and-when-i-die/
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Thank you so much Grandtrines for all the reblogs, and for your lovely compliment. I like what you wrote too!
Alison
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I love the photographs! Photography of real life, real objects, and real people is some of the most beautiful art there is.
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Thank you so much, I’m glad you like them. Photography is one of the great joys of my life. And as we travel photographing the people is especially rewarding because of the simple human connection, and because of being able to share our common humanity.
Alison
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Thank you so much for information! I thought it directs directly but apparently not 😦 on wordpress it does, i guess, automatically. Well, as i said, i am still new to all this blogging stuff, so your help is really appreciated 🙂
That what i found on internet, how to insert the link to my blog. Still working on what you suggesting about settings)) Thanks again!
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You’re welcome. I can link to your site another way and it says it’s been deleted. Good luck. I hope you get it all sorted out. It’s always a learning curve in the beginning.
Alison
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BECAUSE GIVING IS FULFILLING? 🙂
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Thanks so much Jonathan. Much appreciated!
Alison
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we creative folks support–to some extent–each other. 🙂
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Yes indeed.
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Sorry, I’m terribly late commenting on this. I’m really glad you wrote this and shared. I’ve been wondering why I blog as well and if I should continue. It’s always comforting to know that someone else is in the same or similar boat for situations such as this. I’m really glad you blog because your content is like reading a good book that makes you want to set ample time to savor every last word. Given what you know about me, I don’t get a lot of ample time to do all I want to do. However, when I have that time to read, I am so grateful because it’s one of my favorite things to do.
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Thank you so much TR-IOM. I’m so glad you’re enjoying the blog. I’m sure there are people who are inspired by what you write, and are helped by knowing they are not alone, so keep blogging. The sharing happens whether we know about it or not. Just putting it out into the universe helps, if only to help you vent from time to time.
Alison
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Thank you so much, for your encouragement! I really appreciate that!
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super inspiring post. Thank you. As a budding “blogger” I feel encouraged by this. What a gift
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Thank you! I’m so glad you found it inspiring. Here’s another bit of encouragement – I just read a bunch of your posts and was inspired right back. I got a good reminder about doing what I really want.
Alison
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This is beautiful, thank you for sharing!
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Thank you so much Ellynne. I had to share it, I had to give it away 🙂
Alison
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Wow – this is such a well written and inspiring post – thanks so much for sharing. As a creative person I can really relate to the need to share in this way. It is, as you say, a vital part of the creative process. I have just started a poetry blog here on WordPress in case you have time to have a look? I can’t believe it has taken me this long to start blogging and I am really glad to have this outlet. Wishing you a good weekend, Sam 🙂
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Thank you so much samba. It is a wonderful compliment when someone is inspired by what I write. I’ll take a look at your blog for sure. I’m sorry I’ve taken so long to reply – been busy. Wishing you a good weekend too – what’s left of it 🙂
Alison
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No problems I completely understand and have a good week ahead! 🙂
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Thank you for sharing this story and your view of creativity and sharing. That resonates so well with me!
Picasso, that you mentioned, said that we have two things to do in life: 1 – to find your gift, 2- to share it. that kind of sums it up. I never saw sharing as a part of creativity – but I come to see that this is the ending of the process, as you say.
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Hi Marina, thanks for commenting. I can see from your blog why this post would resonate for you. Sharing it is half the fun, and the completion of the creative act.
Alison
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Thank you for visiting 🙂 I have never thought in this way of sharing, though I’ve always felt like a playful kid with this urge for sharing. Your post framed it in a very nice way. Great to have neighbors like you!
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As I said in my latest post, almost nobody reads my blog, but I do it anyway. I figure someday when the kids are older they will happen upon it and have some idea what I was like. I hope they don’t see it until they are mature enough to take it in.
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I think if we’re inspired to blog we should do it anyway. Which is obviously the same conclusion you came to. The people who are meant to read the content will find their way to your blog, to my blog, to any blog. It seems to be a very organic process. I’m curious to know how you discovered this page. It’s been getting a lot of traffic lately and I don’t know where from.
Alison
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amazing blog Marina……
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Thanks so much Marina.
Alison
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I really enjoyed reading this post. It points toward something I’ve been thinking about lately: the autotelic personality. That is, someone who does something purely for intrinsic purposes. Others sometimes say that most people need some external motivation, like grades, status, money, et cetera, but those have never been enough to make me want to do something — but I when I want to do something, I am generally willing to give it away for free. I’m even now looking at my finances to see if I can manage to work part time, because writing (and other volunteer activities) are so valuable to me — more than the money I could earn in those surplus work hours. Is it just we artists who feel that way? How common is this sense? But the giving is the most valuable thing.
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Thanks so much Jessie. I don’t think it’s just artists who feel this way. I think many people discover the rewards of intrinsic giving, and I think it’s all a kind of grace that is bestowed – the urge to do or create something followed by the urge to give it away.
I did have trouble for a long time with the idea of getting paid for my work (as a spiritual therapist) but never had trouble accepting money for my paintings. Now I’m finally being paid as a travel writer and it feels great, but I would never pursue it as a necessary source of income because over the years I’ve learned that as soon as that becomes a factor the waters get muddy very quickly. I hope you get things sorted so you can work part time and have time to pursue doing what you really love to do. I’ve lived most of my life that way.
Alison
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Thank you, Allison! It’s a helpful sanity check along the way to interact with others who feel the same or similarly.
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Hi Alison,
I want to “re-like” this post. What you say here is exactly what it’s all about; when we flow and overflow from a source of creativity and inspiration, we want to create a recipient. We want to share in order to fulfill the process. This is a beautiful post, and I’m glad to see it again.
Love,
Ka
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Thanks so much Ka. I’m so glad you like it. There can definitely be ego involved in the creative process, but when it comes from clear inspiration it seems to be a completely altruistic process that calls out to be shared. I like your way of saying it: “when we flow and overflow from a source of creativity and inspiration, we want to create a recipient.” It seems such a necessary part of the creative process.
Alison
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Excellent and familiar. Giving it away is the key. Much joy with it to come!
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Thanks so much Manja. Giving it away seems as important to me as creating it. And there’s joy in both of course.
Alison
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I found my way to this blog via Snow’s post on her blog. I can see you ‘get’ blogging in a similar way to me.Yet I hadn’t thought of blogging as creativity like painting or making something is. But you are right. Here I was addicted to blogging yet thinging it was the writing that had me entranced. But yes it is also creative! ”
Sometimes it is a scratching secret, wanting out, wanting to be in the world but held back by fear. Either way there is something about the act of sharing with the world, however big or small that world might be, that completes the creative process. Creativity has a luminance that aches to be shared…”
I love these words that you wrote.Encapsulates the rationale for creativity, at least for me. I must just quote that on a future blog post, if I have your permission?
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Thanks so much Amanda. I’m glad my musings about blogging and creativity resonated for you. I find writing and photography both to be very creative.
I’d be delighted to be quoted, so yes you have my permission.
Alison
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Thanks so much Alison, much appreciated. I might use it Proverbial Friday this week.
Amanda
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I loved reading this and being able to relate to this. I am often asked by friends why I blog and does it make me any money. I answer because I love to share my stories and No I haven’t made a penny but that isn’t why I do it (though of course, it would be lovely!) I love to take photographs and intertwine them with stories and information so my reader feels a sense of what it is like to be in a certain place that they may otherwise never visit.
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Thanks so much Angie. I’ve been at it 10 years now, and can’t imagine stopping. Because stories! There’s always more stories, and it’s so much fun to share them. Also the more I do it the more I get to be a better writer. Like you I aim to have people feel what it’s like to be there. It’s always so gratifying when commenters say that.
I haven’t made any money from it directly but it has led to the sale of some articles and photographs and some pretty decent travel exchanges so I’m good with that. I can’t imagine monetizing my blog. That just doesn’t feel right for me.
Alison
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